For once be honest, be honest with yourself at least. It’s a nightmare; you’re not performing and you know it. You get paid reasonably well; you want to keep a roof over your head and maintain that cushy lifestyle but you don’t have the desire to do better. Going to a place you don’t belong to every day is killing you inside. Pretending to be happy and lying to yourself that “it’s the price of success” when deep inside you know it’s not.
Tell me….
“What I know is?
- I want to wear my hair in locks accessorised in all kinds of jewellery.
- I want to wear red, green, and two different types of socks and not care.
- I want to practice yoga in the middle of the day, or do Pilates if I feel like it.
- I want to discover new places, eat new food and bask in the sun, read a book or just be still and feel the warm weather.
- I want to talk to that person; learn about their life lived and unlived.
- I want to help that guy there, grieving the loss of his father, that women with a husband in jail struggling to keep her head above water. I want to be….be with them so they know the world cares.
- I want to dance with my girls on a Saturday morning and smile.
- I want to breathe – settle my heart.
- I want to love.
- I want PEACE, shh…. I want peace.”
Don’t be so hard on yourself tee; be kind. Explore even when you’re scared. Live that life that you dream of, and help others. Stop; I mean STOP! Stop pretending you’re perfect! The people that really matter will love you. Fail if you have to, but try. Be brave!
“Trust fall honey, trust fall.”
